Some random thoughts.

So I'm just sitting around this evening with all these random thoughts floating around in my head. First of all I wanna brag a little. I was driving out to the store last night and I always pass by this gas station right by our house, it tends to be one of the cheapest in the city, and last night I almost crashed because I couldn't believe what I saw. Gas was down to $1.86!!!! It was so awesome! So it gave me hope that things will be getting back to normal economy wise. Everyone has been so down and everyone I know has been having financial issues. So I'm hoping that things will start to pick up. I know money isn't everything but having one less thing to worry about sure makes me happy! I also was thinking how bored I am lately. I took three weeks off of school to just take a moment and chill, spend time with the kids, and get some stuff in order, but I'm bored having nothing to do. I decided that I'm the kind of person who gets more done when things are crazy and hectic! I work better under pressure. I like to juggle and keep busy. Chris is so the opposite it's funny, but I think we do pretty well to find a balance and compromise. I realized today that with out the pressure of school I did not really get anything done on my list of what I wanted to do. Now I'm in my last week and I bet you I'll find a way to cram it all into this last week...cuz I like it crazy! My final thought for today is that I miss home! Me and Chris want to move back so badly! But we're just not sure it's the right thing to do. We've been doing really good lately to suppress those feelings and move on with life but it's getting harder and harder. It seems like every time we talk to someone from Utah everyone has something great going on that we're missing and desperately want to be a part of! It's a difficult choice because our hearts are in Utah, and if it were just us we'd move but I just can not bear to separate my family from the kids and visa verse. Everyone is so attached and I don't have the heart to do it to either one of them. Carson is torn too. He tells me everyday he wants to be with his uncles, aunts and his grandparents in Utah but I tell him that means we'd have to be far away from our family here and he cries. I miss him having that family around him. They were good for him. Me and Chris like it here in Texas but we feel like our lives are in Utah and we feel like we're just missing everything that's going on there...it hurts. We'll pray about it and see what happens. For now that's all.

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3 Joys
My husband
My kids
Spending quality time together as a family

3 Fears
Not being the mom that my kids deserve
Not being the wife my husband deserves
That in worrying so much about the future that I miss out on the present

3 Goals
To always try to make it happy
To take steps to stregthen our family (spiritually, financially...)
To spend more time together as a family

3 Current Obsessions
Scrapbooking
Doing crafts with my kids
Organizing/cleaning

3 Regrets
I try hard to live my life without regrets. Me and Chris have a mantra, "Make your choice and then live with it and move on." We try to live life like that and not dwell on the past. If I had to pick out a regret it would be:
Not getting my teaching degree when I first went to college
Leaving Logan
Not spending more time with my friends in Utah (Jamie that means you) when I had the chance.

3 Facts About Me
I love to travel
I am currently in Grad School getting a teaching degree
I make lists for everything and have a wall of lists

3 Annoyances
When my house is dirty or cluttered
That there are never enough hours in the day
People who like to comment on that fact that I have three kids or look at me funny in the grocery store (it's like unnatural to people here in Texas that we are so young and married and that we have three kids...we're like a freak show)

I tag Jamie.

Missing cooler weather

So it's crazy to me how much I've changed in the last seven and a half years. I got married, had three kids, graduated from college, on and on and on.Perhaps the most shocking change however has been my change in climate preference. Anyone who really knows me though that I would rather be hot and sweating then cold, but they also know that I am always cold. No matter what the temp is outside or inside I am always cold! It's a weird phenomenon that stumps everyone who knows me. I grew up in Texas where despite the warm climate I found a way to still always be cold. In the middle of the summer I would were a sweater always. When I moved to Utah after high school I had to buy an entire winter wardrobe because I only had warm weather clothes. Dont get me wrong it gets cold in Texas, but not super cold and not for very long. I remember my college roommate Kayla from Minnesota was astonished at the lack of socks I had because I could seriously wear flip flops almost year round. Anyways I suffered in Utah with the cold. It drove me nuts! The winters were hard on me, but slowly over the six years I was there winter clothes began taking the place of summer clothes and I became a little more okay with the cold weather and the idea of four seasons not just hot and slightly less hot. Though actually Utah only has three seasons because to truly be spring I'm pretty sure you need rain. Anyways, being in Texas this last year has really opened my eyes to how much I changed. We moved in November so it was already to that slightly less hot season and we had our winter gear out, when summer came around and the winter clothes got put away I realized how empty my closet was. I had to rebuild myself a warm clothes stock pile. I enjoyed the summer months that I had longed for in Utah until about September. That's when it really hit me. I began longing for cooler nights, and for the leaves to change and for fall. (My absolute favorite time of year!!!) It never happened, it remained in the 90's and 80s. October came and went flirting with the cold, but it never would stick for too long before it climbed back up into the 80s. Finally just this last week the leaves finally changed in NOvember)though it's still been in the 80s, we've had cooler nights and mornings, and more boughts of cooler weather...it gives me hope that soon it'll finally be winter, though a mild, Texas winter. I also realized that before I would always sleep with the air off at night and a big down comforter no matter how hot it was, I loved being toasty when I slept. Sure I'd wake up sweating, but I loved it. Since we moved here I noticed that I can't stand being hot when I'm sleeping. I crank up the air only at night I can pretty much get through all day with it off and I'm fine for some reason at night I'm like always super hot! It's wierd how much time changes us. I realized how much I miss Utah, and the winters, and the cool nights. Maybe someday we'll get to finally come home!